menjelang hari besarku

rasanya tidak karuan. rasa takut, deg-degan semua bercampur jadi satu menjadi rasa yang bahkan susah dijelaskan dengan kata-kata. perasaan yang bercampur aduk mengiring pengumuman UN. Seandainya saja pemberitaan di media massa tidak semenakutkan itu mungkin saya atau lebih tepatnya kami juga tidak akan setegang ini. Sayangnya pemberitaan di koran, televisi, atau bahkan di beberapa website menyatakan tingkat kelulusan begini-begitu. saya sih inginnya mengabaikan, tapi bagaimana ? tetap saja pemberitaan itu memberikan efek buat saya. saya yang tadinya tenang jadi galau, resah. Ahh. Tapi saya yakin Tuhan sudah merencanakan segala sesuatunya indah untuk kita semua. Kita hanya bisa berpasrah dan tetap berpikir positif. bahwa segala hasil usaha dan kerja keras kita selama berbulan-bulan berbuah manis untuk kita semua dan kita semua bisa LULUS. Amin.

eat, pray, love- elizabeth gilbert

   People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
   
  A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
  
 A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...

life is . . .

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

words speak

mata hatimu terbeli oleh uang

aku benci fakta bahwa uang membutakan
membutakan pikiran, mata hati, dan perasaan
membutakan dirimu bahwa diluar sana banyak orang menderita karenamu
banyak orang yang harus menanggung sesuatu yang tidak mereka lakukan
aku tahu uang memang penting
tapi apakah demi uang juga anda rela menukar kebahagiaan orang lain ?
pernahkah anda melihat sekeliling anda ?
banyak orang tersakiti cuma karena obsesi anda akan uang

high school never ends

3 years ago i didnt know anything about you
3 years ago we were stranger for each other 
3 years ago we were mate but not close as we are now
3 years ago was not fun as now

3 years we've been going thru bad times and good times.
we smile, we laugh, we cry together
we share anything
we talk about life
we talk about our dreams
we talk anything
we are gossiping too
we do crazy thing
we chill
we hang out together
we do dozen things together

high school may be end very soon
but our friendship no
no, it wont
it'll be forever and always

and i just wanna say this to you all
I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

complete

i accidently downloaded this song few days ago. i thought thats parachute song. well no matter who is the singer. i love this song. this song titled complete and i just found the lyric is good. this song was about love for god, jesus actually. here's the lyric 

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice
My open heart
I offer up my life

I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to You Lord
In Your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now
Let Your love fall down on me
I know Your love dispels all my fears
And I will be complete in You

Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith I will walk on, Lord
Then I'll see
Beyond my Calvary one day
And I will be complete in You

I will be complete in
I will be complete in You

so many things happened. im tired. im sick of everything. im sick of everyone. i cant stand it anymore. some people just asked me much things and i dont know if i can fulfil all or not. I screw everything up. I messed everything.
you just another story that make me tired.
you're hot and cold
cold more hot less.
hate more love less.
swearing more sweet words less.
i dont understand you anymore. i dont think i do.

i am tired. i don't want to think anymore ....